I can’t believe Christmas is this weekend! December has flown by! I moved back home for winter break yesterday. It feels so good to be home and have a few weeks to rest and recharge before heading back to school for the spring semester. Over the last few weeks, I have been really thinking about how quick it is for life to change in an instant. A year ago, I was in a really hard and dark place and I was really struggling with my mental health.
My Life A Year Ago: I was in a really dark place
For one, I was really struggling with a difficult roommate. If you missed my post, I wrote all about my first semester last year and how I put up with such a difficult roommate. At the beginning of last December, my roommate sent me a rather mean text. She told me that she was switching rooms, which was fine and I was glad she was leaving. However, it is how she said it and everything else in that text. This text made me feel like it was my fault and I was to blame for her leaving and how things went that semester. Deep down I knew this wasn’t true because it takes two to tango, but this text still stung.
Around this time, I was already in a really hard place. I was depressed and anxious all the time. And the text from my roommate was just the cherry on top. It made me feel worse than I already was. I wished my life was different and I didn’t understand why my life had to be so hard. It didn’t seem or feel fair.
Life Can Change in an Instant
Fast forward to this semester, my life feels pretty great right now. While I have had some patches of anxiety and loneliness, nothing has compared to last December.
This is the first semester in a long time, but I actually looked forward to going to class because the people there, not solely because of academics. It has taken many years, but I feel like I am finally building more meaningful relationships, with at least one or two people and this feels so good! The friendships that I have been craving for years, I feel like I am finally really working towards!
The Main Takeaway
If you are going through a really hard time right now, please know you are not alone. I know that sounds easier than it is. When you’re going through a really difficult time in life, it does feel incredibly lonely and isolating. I know because I was there.
However, please know that it won’t last. Your life will be good again one day. Life can change in an instant. Today may be really hard, but tomorrow, next week, next month, next year, may be really good. There may seem like there isn’t a light at the end of the tunnel, but I promise you, it is there, and it is coming. You will get through it.
Whenever I have hard days, I think back to last December and realize that not much can be harder than that was. And if I can get through that, I can get through anything. As hard as that time was, it has made me a much stronger person. I am grateful for that difficult time in that it has helped me to grow as a person.
Endnote
I wrote a post all about pushing your comfort zone. While in this situation, I didn’t push my comfort zone, it was still a very uncomfortable time in my life. I am a firm believer that if you push your comfort zone and/or if you are uncomfortable, it helps you to grow as a person.
I hope this post brought you some sense of comfort or light. If you are going through a dark time and need someone to listen, feel free to send me a DM on Instagram. I am more than happy to be that listening ear for you. Or, just come find me on Instagram and hang out on stories! Going into the new year, I hope to share more of my journey and the struggles I have overcome in order to hopefully help people know they aren’t alone.